Wednesday, 25 June 2014

134. Lifestyle // Seeking Clarity

Those of you who follow me on Twitter will know that I've recently been having a tough time with my anxiety (which I wrote about here). The last couple of months have been tough; I took the decision to leave my job, I lost my grandfather to cancer and I lost a lot of the stability that had previously been in my life - I think this is what has triggered my anxiety; having no control.
I decided to take the bull by the horns and tackle my anxieties, so that I can move forwards, so I'm spending a week at my mum's gorgeous home just outside of the Lake District in Sedbergh, Cumbria, where I've been taking time out for myself; reflecting on things that have happened, thinking about what my next steps should be, researching into courses and jobs and, generally, trying to relax and enjoy myself; discovering, along the way, who I am and what I want.
So far, so good. I find it so therapeutic out here; I feel as though I'm somewhat disconnected from everything back home - despite still being in touch with my family, friends and S - and I find that I can channel much greater clarity away from the distractions of home. I've also been able to talk at length with my Mum and Grandma about what I'm thinking about and their support and advice has been invaluable, giving me the belief that I can achieve whatever I want to.
Although it's only been three days, I believe that I'm developing some really exciting ideas for my career and life, and I feel positive that - once I've done some further research and am sure of the path which I need to follow - I can set myself realistic goals and, over time, achieve them with great success.
I'll be writing a post shortly, once everything is decided, about what I'd like to do in terms of my career, relationships, mental health, hobbies, blog and education. I'm excited to get started and to share my journey with you.


  1. Well done girl! Stay strong! And well done to you for not giving up! :-) it looks beautiful! XxxX

    1. Thanks for your comment chick. And thanks for your sweet text too! It was lovely and I've come back feeling so refreshed. xoxoxox

  2. I'm so glad you've decided to take the first step in to managing your anxiety Becci :) without a doubt it will have probably been triggered even more so with the loss of your granddad, so sorry about your loss. over the years I've been in such a anxiety bubble that nothing seemed to affect me, I think though things were affecting me but I just wasn't fully aware or even clicking on that it was affecting me :/ does that even make sense? anyway, I look forward to hearing more on your adventure Becci, I'm glad you are taking us all along with you! :) xxx